I just completed a video game called Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning that I've spent over sixty hours playing, and it left me feeling pretty contemplative and melancholic. While I may be talking about how I felt after playing a video game, I think this post will still be relatable because I think that all of us, at one point or another, have had something we put a lot of time in to end. It's just that most people feel this way after relationships, not finishing video games. I decided that because I was feeling melancholic, I would just jot down my thoughts.
This is hardly the first time I've spent so long on one game. That tends to happen when you play a lot of RPG's. I didn't even feel like this after finishing all three Mass Effect games one after the other, and that was over 100 hours of gameplay. I've completed a few Final Fantasy's in my time too and I spent two years plus on World of Warcraft. I never really found myself feeling anything other than joy and relief that I had finished them. If anything I felt pretty good to have completed something I spent such a long amount of time on. I think that's something else other people can relate to.
It's like...that was sixty hours of my life. I had a lot of fun playing the game, and I hardly think it was wasted time or effort (time spent having fun is never wasted) but I don't know, I just don't feel right. I haven't been feeling right for days though if I'm honest. Last Saturday I almost snapped and cut my ponytail off (I didn't do it by the way, the moment passed). I'm so glad I was out shopping at the time or I would have grabbed a pair of scissors and probably done it. Then I almost had another breakdown while sat in my room. Doing nothing.
If I've become so fragile that I can't even sit alone in my room without wanting to cry then what the hay is wrong with me?