Monday, 8 February 2016

Well That Didn't Last Long

So last week I was all haughty and declared that I wouldn't eat junk food for a whole month. I fully intended to do just that. I really thought I could do it too. Then this past weekend happened. I was lonely and alone. They are two separate things after all. So I did what I always do in that situation. I ordered pizza.

I'm not proud of that by any stretch of the imagination. In fact when I told my friend I had done it my exact words were "shame begets shame" because yeah, it felt shitty. It felt wrong and if I could take it back I would. But I can't.

What I can do is move forward and not do it again. I already resisted the urge to buy more pizza yesterday. At least that time it was more out of tiredness than comfort eating. The only thing worse than getting four hours of sleep is getting it in two installments of two hours.

That's another thing I need to do. I need to find a better way of dealing with my loneliness than comfort eating. I know one of the answers to that is to get more friends but I'm comfortable with things like that. I don't really want more friends. I just wouldn't mind more time with the ones I have.

Anyway sorry to be such a downer first thing in the week. The thing I need the most right now is accountability though. I need to tell you guys when I mess up.

Christ I sound like I'm in Alcoholics Anonymous or something. One thing I never got about A.A is if it's Alcoholics Anonymous why does everyone say their name?

9 comments:

  1. Getting right back on the straight and narrow is the way to do it!

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  2. There's always a convenient excuse to do something we're trying not to, I know.

    I'm the same way. Not with pizza, but with people. I complain that i have few friends but then when people call, I don't really want to talk to them. I can't have it both ways and I really do think I like my time alone.

    Good luck this week!

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  3. Try making it a habit of asking yourself "should I be doing this" for all things food-related. Yes, even when you're making the right choice. When you decide on what to have for dinner, really think about it and its consequences. If you can manage to do that regularly, stopping yourself should come easier. It's all about awareness.
    Good luck, you got this!

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  4. at least you know why you eat, I think I am just greedy. Don't give up Mark.

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  5. No point in dwelling on the past; all you can do is move forward. You can always try replacing comfort food with a healthy habit, like I feel lonely so I'll go for a quick walk. There's a great nature trail nearby here, and I always go for a walk there when I'm feeling cooped up. It's the best way to not feel alone while simultaneously not being near anyone.

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  6. I think you have to eat pizza some time or you would just go insane. What about eating pizza in moderation?

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  7. Hello Mark,

    At least you are brave to admit that you have broken your promise but I think you don't have to be very hard on yourself. Once in a way it is good to eat pizza, enjoy it and feel happy. As long you don't do it frequently it is alright. You don't have to reprimand or condemn yourself.

    I think you are sleeping too little. You should sleep at least five to six hours without interruption to get you batteries recharged.

    Best wishes

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  8. I honestly don't blame you, sometimes when you're alone and don't have much to do on top of that, temptation to eat can set in, happens to me time after time again. Try not to beat yourself up regardless, pizza is hard to resist!

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