I'm tired of being so damn negative all the time. I got reasons to be down, sure, but I got reasons to feel good too. I would say one of those reasons really hit me over the week. See, I've been so overworked that I've been working 8-12 hour days in order to get everything done. It's slowly driving me insane and I've undoubtedly put some weight on (again) but I also had one of those eye opening moments that keep you going.
I found myself thinking about how awesome it feels, if not a little weird, to be so good at something that people are willing to pay me to do it. That's what I do. That's the essence of being a freelancer. I'm so good at this that, out of the millions (okay probably hundreds or thousands) of people who do what I do, the client chose me.
They are happy with my work. They come back for more.
They pay me for doing it, and it feels pretty good. Even though I've been doing what I do for a few years now I've never really had that feeling. I've had people tell me that they're the best writer they've worked with, and I've had people who are sad that I have to stop working for them. I have people who genuinely like what I do. They place a real monetary value on it.
It really sucks that I'm killing myself with these long days, but the reason for it? That feels pretty good. I wouldn't be working so much if I wasn't good at my job. They say that freelancers set their own hours, but this is only true to a point. Our skills determine our hours, because our skills determine our workload.
When you've got so much work that you're still typing away at two in the morning, then, well, you must be pretty skilled.
Alright I'll stop gushing over myself now.